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I really just feel like punching him right now. I hate it! I HATE IT! I hate how he's ignoring me! We have different opinions. He's religious I'm not. He's republican, I'm not. He hates gays, I don't. I love old music, he thinks it's stupid. I didn't care, but his blunt responses, without listening to a word I was saying, AUGH, it just pisses me off  so freaking much now!!


NOTE: You can pretty much just skip to the end where I'm asking for advice if you really want. I wouldn't be offended. The next paragraph is just me bitching about him.


You know what? I'm terrified of needles. You know how hard it is for me to sew something without being terrified? It's impossible. I was terrified of stabbing myself with it the entire time. I have nightmares about being stabbed by thousands of needles. Sewing made it worse. He knew that. I'd told him this.
And yet, when I built up the courage to sew him something, I decided to sew him a hat, and mittens and make him a scarf. He didn't have any snow-gear and we had a blizzard that was going to hit. I pricked my fingers all over and I bled a lot. I actually cried at one point later because guess what, after I had put everything away I stepped on a needle. (didn't go straight in because I stepped on it on an angle) I had it bandaged under my sock for over a week. Not that he noticed. It was because I was afraid he would get an earache, because the winds are so harsh here in winter, and were even worse this winter. I loved him very much so I made it for him and gave it to him happily, telling myself, "He'll be grateful. Then I can bother him about how I hurt my foot, i can joke about it. This way he won't get an earache like I did. I can also proudly tell him I made it even though I don't like needles. I can boast to him about how it's hand sewn and show him the straight stitches. I can tease him about how funny he looks wearing it, even though I made it."  But you know what he did? Nothing. He never wore it. Not even the scarf. It's not like it was a girly pattern. It was brown and black houndstooth or something like that. But no. He never wore it. Not once.

He's always ignoring me. He hasn't texted me for over a week. Last time I talked to him was on facebook. but you know what? All he did was say "How are you?" and then barely 5 minutes later he signed off.

Whenever he texts me that's all he does. One word answers.


I am so sick of being used! I'm his girlfriend, not just some random girl! And yet he ignores me, like I'm nobody, like we have no memories together. And the truth is, the ones we have aren't even that good. Just a few giggles. Arguing playfully a few times, an awkward first kiss. ( I missed his face... lolwut.)

I hate this. I hate not being really loved. I hate it, I hate it. This isn't love. He says "I love you" and I say it back. I don't mean it anymore and it's killing me inside to say it to him when I don't love him. Not anymore.

I don't know how to break it off. We've dated for so long it might come as a shock to him. I am so sick of it. We don't even get together anymore, unless I just go to his house where he awkwardly introduces me to his family then we spend half our time watching TV or something. He doesn't care either. It doesn't feel like love. If it is, it's one sided. I doubt he actually loves me. I feel like he's forcing himself to. I know I am.

I hate it. I fucking hate it, so much. I feel like crying. I want to but I just can't muster it right now. I don't want to be an emotional mess for

Can some please tell me how to break up with him? How to break up with someone you've dated for awhile? I still kind of want to be friends....
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Mattpwnsall Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2012  Student Artist
Talk to him in person. Tell him calmly what's going on and tell him that if he's not going to treat you the way he should, maybe you guys should break up, but remain friends for the time being. If he wants to keep th rlationship, he'll change, butif he really doesnt care, then ed it. Otherwise, its time for you to man up and show him.

Hope it goes well for you :hug:
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OmgItsSai Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Do not break up with him over the phone, talk to him in person and say its over, you want more love in the relationship and want him to spend more time with you. If he isn't showing you love then its time to END it. Like you said, It may come as a shock to him but you're making the right decision..
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FucshiaWillow Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks ^^ That's great advice xD I was really trying to figure out what to say. It's just awkward for me, y'know? I normally am the one who gets dumped ^^"

I'm feeling better now, though. I've cooled off xD I think that's a good way to put it.

How have you been? We, like, never talk xDD though that's my fault lol.
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OmgItsSai Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Oh me too, I got dumped because I wouldn't kiss a guy on our first date Plus I was always paranoid that a family member would see me with my boyfriend...

So are you going to break up with him?


I'm doing good, I'm playing on Steam. 030
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FucshiaWillow Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That guy sounds like a jerk :/
I know, that's what I'm always paranoid about. It's like, on every date I go on I feel like my aunt or dad's gonna sneak up behind me. It's weird.

Yeah. I think that's the best thing to do. Only problem is I have to wait awhile before I can breakup with him :/ Because he never brings me anywhere xD

Cool :3
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OmgItsSai Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Call him on the phone but only to say, "We need to talk".


Thats it.


Meet up at someplace.
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FucshiaWillow Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I guess that'll work, I just hate having to break people's hearts. I'm not really a cold person so it's hard for me to break up with someone.

I think that's a simple way to do it. It sounds a lot easier if I do something like that. Otherwise it makes me upset.

I haven't really been up to much lately. I've pretty much been drawing and that's all xD
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OmgItsSai Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Fuu I've been trying to draw XD I can't color for Shit.


It is, the "we need to talk" always work.
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FucshiaWillow Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Lol. I'm having an artblock right now xD

Yea.
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